Test results and the waiting game.

And now I play the waiting game with pathology. This is, by far, the worst part. You play out every possible scenario in your mind. It has been keeping me awake at night.  In the meantime, I am healing well and began rehab already. Looking at the incisions, it looks like the scars wont be as bad as I thought they would be. So that's a plus.

 Above is the image of my left knee. You can see on the femur head there is a dark circle ( just above the word LEFT on the image). That was removed. The surgeon said there was lots of debris aggravating nerves as well. So he cleaned it out before closing up. Hopefully that will help with some of the pain too.


Between my back surgery, the Hysterectomy, abdominal mass removals, and now the knee surgeries, I feel like Ive missed out on so many things with the kids.  Part of me feels guilty, and part of me is angry and resentful. I am angry at this disease. It has already taken so much from me. 
How do you get passed being angry? I don't want to waste the time that I do have being angry. It seems like such a waste.

Well Im off today to care for a sick child, and take a sick friend to the doctor.  Its nice not to have the SICKNESS spotlight on me for a while.  
Love and Light.
Remember stay in the NOW. Its all you've got!